..:: haRapaN ::..

et diLahirkan kerana sebuaH harapan..

et membesar ngan harapan2 org..
et b’juanG kerana harapan2 org..
c0z, harapan org tu bg et kekuatan,
bukan tekaNan..

harapan pe?
jd pelajar yg pandai
anak yg taat kpd ibu bapa
saHabat yg baik
muslimah s0lehaH
mujaHidah sejati..

alangkaH sr0noknya apabila org b’harap pada kita kan?
aLangkaH manisnya kalo harapan org tu kita dapat
tunaikan..
alhamdulilLah, so far so go0d..
tp, alanGkaH takutnya,
mengecewakan harapan org lain..

sekaranG..
semuanya t’seraH paDa Allah..
et hanya mampu b’tawakkaL..

ya Allah..
tol0ngLa,
janGan kecewakan org2 yg b’harap kpd kejayaanku..

et nk meng’quote’ baLik mende2 yg et da tulis dulu..

terinGat balik kat kisaH2 lama..tHe olD eT

=]

betapa seLaLu et lupa pasaL harapan ni..

when i g0t the offer to go to United States

i did not actualLy kn0w what to do..

i was afraid, if i c0uld not acc0mplish my parents’ h0pes..c0z i was realLy baD in enGlish

but then, i accepted the offer..(if i just let it go, when will i get the same chance..riGht?)

k..

but it was not easy f0r me..c0z my englisH was baD

i l0st my c0nfidence (alth0ugh i d0n’t realLy have) and even thinking about appLying to UPU again~!!

i t0ld ummul ab0ut this..and she said

awak..janGan la menGalah..kaLo awk xdapat fLy,

cuba bayanGkan berapa banyak hati yg akan terluka..

sy da la xdpt fly..kaLo awak xdpt fly, sy laGilah sedeyh

janGan sia2kan peLuang ni eh

her w0rds made me think a l0t

‘aah kan..i was s0 selfish..i just think b0ut myself..i sh0uld have c0nsider other people’s expectati0n t0wards me..’

then, masa et nk update bl0g ni..et t’baca baLik mende et tulis, lpas sPm dulu..

it gives me c0uraGe

i kn0w i can~!

i canNot give up without givinG it a tRy~!

sRikanDi isLam xkan menyeraH~

=]

~ by etzatiey on February 7, 2008.